hi, my name is jane malone. a 19 year old from cincinnati, ohio. i graduated from the school for creative and performing arts in 2020 with a visual arts diploma. art was and has always been a part of my life. ever since i was little i loved creating and crafting. i had a "store" in my closet called jane's shop, where i would sell decorated toilet paper holders and other goods. i have always had a passion of sharing my art with the world, even if my parents and my sister were the only ones to participate in jane's shop, and i am honored to be able to carry on with my artistic pursuits with cursed.
derealization can be defined as “a sense of experiencing one's own behavior, thoughts, and feelings from a dreamlike distance.” i began experiencing feelings of derealization in the eighth grade, but my symptoms worsened junior year. my world shifted dramatically from what i had known to a dream like place where i did not feel fully present. as i began to research this disorder, i found that there was no magical cure or medicine, except rigorous talk therapy. after a year, i began to give up and let it consume me. but, by my junior year something changed. alongside my friend mary, i began to draw. i started drawing something completely out of my comfort zone. i drew these surreal blob creatures alongside captions, that could be called strange or disturbing, such as a tooth that said ‘crunchy’. these drawings were a manifestation of my derealization.
they mirrored the same feelings of confusion and strangeness i would experience when in a derealized state. it seemed silly at first, but i began to draw them often. i drew them on the board in my classes as a joke, but it became a habit. everyday without fail, i would draw them on the board first bell. in fact, the more ‘unreal’i was, the more complex and great the drawings were. fellow students began to talk about my creations, laugh at them, and take pictures of them. on days where I felt so isolated, seeing how my drawings made people happy means the absolute world to me. i felt less alone, and was able to gain inner peace with my situation.
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